Recently life is really tough. I've finished my film-cutting eventually, and past my final term stuffs till today. However, there is still one essay. Since last week, days divide to 3 recycles, waking, tiring, fainting.....waking, so one day of mine are not 24 hrs but 36 hrs. Besides, I realize one thing that it is unchallenged that you might sleep when extremely exhausted, or you would faint on your desk like me.
only 3 hours sleeping for 2 days, it is extremely enough to bring me hell, but facts are facts, I still have one seminar needed face tomorrow. Due to the insufficient break, I can feel that my orgins are rising their flags and cry loud to me. Sign~ that is exact Leslie, who always put his affaire off until the deadline, things never change, even though when it is the last day of the world.
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For film cutting, it is easier to do a bonus. Just putting the rapid clips which are in quick beats and accompanied with some influent back music is enough, although it need a little consideration to arrange. However, regarded it as a record movie, it's truly not as that easy. I should think a lot and make a linear topic to make the film sensible. Most of all, avoiding the coherence without barriers to the audience is very important.
Well, the two parts of issue really confuse me and make me suffer in pressure recently.
Tonight, I got a worst news.
After my cousin's marriage affair emerged into my life, I can't look over it. I tried to tell myself that that's their couple's own business. Even though I strongly want to do something, nothing I can do. However hearing the alcohol and suicides depression of her, I can't help myself leaving it aside. I don't want to lose my cousin, the one who has ever given me lots of surports and encouragement.
Due to her situation, what she needs now is the positive asistance to face her life and her sticky marriage. At least we should pull her out of the suicide-willing depression. On the other hand, I have to convice her husband, who makes his mind divorcing, to face this marriage cresis rather than just to leave her family a big headache.
Personally, given my opinion of his atitude is extremely unreasonable and matureless. I keenly feel in anger. How he can act such non-responsible so that I have to put all things aside to regard his question as my priority. Otherwise, he gives me a great excuse, for stopping the confusion of my film cutting promise, my major Prf choosing, and most of all, the exchange-program drream. After thinking of this suck idea seemed in a positive perspective, I find myself a big guilty, unforgiven idiot.
Last Tue., I was asked to check my direct Prf and give my final paper a thesis. Actually, I've been thinking this topic since last semester, then, making dicision to write a lecture about the marking and management of some gallery in Taipei. But the Prf I suppose to looked like falling in a dilemma. He siad that my idea is good and interesting but not in his range, and he suggested me to ask the Prf in the AM(Art Management) graduate study. However, it is more difficult for me to find the AM graduate Prf as major director. Even if one of them would like to, the college office has to hold a meeting for its admission because the Prf who want to direct my papaer is not belonged to the college system.
On the other hand, last weekand I got a tragedy in my family. My cousin, who's just married for 6 months, gets trouble in her marriage. It seems that the communication between her husband and her has been a big problem since they got married. His husband sent the messages again and again to ask my cousin's sister to talk with her. No doubts. his purpose was to force my cousin to agree with devorce. My eldest cousin had no idea how to deal with this, so she turned to ask a favor of me. Most of all, if this problem could not be lead to a fine solution, it would cause a troublesome in the whole family.
Few days ago, I found that I missed the call from Jien-wen, who is the director asked me for supporting them to record their performance.when i called back, he sounded a little exausted. His tired voice made me feel that I lost the belief in someone again and re-exposed my inefficiency. I 've tried to start cutting those types since their performance ended up. But the training from Toefl cram school really wore me down so that I broke my promise day by day, even the tiny tapes inputting job, neither. I'm awfully sorry to him.
Besides, due to my desire to go abroad, I made decision on Toefl craming and thus the exchange program. However, I missed the due-day to the bonus-application of our Education Department so that the only choise for me is that I have to connect those universities with which I want to make exchange and afford the terrible tuition myself. moreover, I might risk failing to graduate from TNUA cause' while I come back, the required credits of my major may not be provided. (it's difficult to explain it here becase of our new college policy.) However, studying abroad especially doing the exchange program, is my dream and was set it as goal when I went into this school.
This afternoon I met Jien-wen. he said that he wants to see the film in mid-May. The plan up which I originally supposed to end before mid-May must be put off, or I will truely lose my credit and affirmation from him. It is a dilemma to make decision between both of two, and hard to distinguish one as my priority.
It is a pity of mine to find my promise broken again. I`m really a lazybone for updating it more than just once a week.
As usual, I missed the caligraphy class this morning, after served myself a cup of coffee, I go to the class called "the develope of fine art between WWI and WWII" which taught by Miss Wan who's a really interesting lady but almost dropped me last semester only because of my absence.Anyway, I figured out that no matter how kindly she is, she still remain her principle. Therefore, I decieded to attend her class without any absence of personal sxcuse.
